Holy Spirit, be quick! Fill me with Yourself as fast as You possibly can. I need Your power, love, patience, faith, joy, self-control, and wisdom for the rest of my day. Well, I needed You much before this, but I am feeling defeated today from the start til now. I don't know why I live trying to be content with this melancholy. I guess I figure it's par for the course. Or maybe I know I deserve the mood because I know I didn't ask for help and my own choices perpetuated the mood. There's absolutely no good reason to feel this way and to drag my feet and the corners of my lips around this house as though I have anything to mourn. So please be quick, Holy Spirit. Increase my faith, uncover the lies Satan has convinced me are roadblocks to my belief that You can do this, and bear fruit through me. Make me eager for Your Word tonight as I do my study. I WANT a relationship with You, Lord, but I keep forsaking You! WHY WHY WHY!?!? I don't understand! Wash over me, wash my insides clean, wash away the darkness I cover my face with. Raise my chin and kiss my cheek. Wrap me in Your arms until I stop resisting Your touch! Melt my icy reserve, my tension, my stress. There is NONE like You, Lord. You are bigger and better than anyone can imagine and You're MINE! But You're also not mine. A wildness to You, an unfathomable side that I cant claim to know... Lord, love me and let me know You do.