"Grieve, grieve some more, and then get up and get on with your life. Until the day comes when all tears will be wiped away, there's nothing wrong with "good" grief.

We rejoice in spite of our grief, not in place of it." Back to the Bible

Am I grieving for my childhood? I don't know, but I feel like a whiner! It's so silly that I act as though I have experienced something horrible in my past, but I most certainly have not. It seems even the things that could have been traumatic really weren't. And yet other things that seem minor get me all wrapped up in self-pity. Why is this, Lord?

It's difficult to remember sometimes that Satan can't know my thoughts because it sure seems like he's there, just messing with me! But that gives him too much credit. After all, I am at my core a sinner. Saved by grace, but still stuck in sin. My default mode is sin. But I am FREE! Sure, it's not possible to never sin again because I am not perfect like Christ. But it is possible to be totally out from under the CONTROL of sin. And yet I do not live like this is true most of the time. Perhaps because it's a foreign concept. I am definitely learning the ins and outs of how a mature believer lives and loving every minute of it. As each new truth hits and sinks in, I keep hoping that the Holy Spirit will then be able to remind me of them whenever I need to practice them. But maybe that's the point. Am I actively practicing what I've learned? Shouldn't there be more prevention strategy to my Walk? OK, so I'm slow on the draw. But that doesn't mean I can't start today.

Lord, I need Your motivation and strength for today. I need You to fill me with Your Spirit and then cause me to act on what He tells me to do! Not one iota of me is capable of doing it myself. Bring to mind what You want me to do when You want me to do it. Today. I'm excited to begin to live the way You intended me to. You are faithful, You are worthy of praise. I praise You, Lord!