"Worldly conformity, in any degree, is a snare to the soul, and makes it more and more liable to presumptuous sins. Moreover, as the Nazarite who drank grape juice could not be quite sure whether it might not have endured a degree of fermentation, and consequently could not be clear in heart that his vow was intact, so the yielding, temporizing Christian cannot wear a conscience void of offence, but must feel that the inward monitor is in doubt of him. Things doubtful we need not doubt about; they are wrong to us. Things tempting we must not dally with, but flee from them with speed. Better be sneered at as a Puritan than be despised as a hypocrite. Careful walking may involve much self-denial, but it has pleasures of its own which are more than a sufficient recompense." Morning and Evening

I am so thankful for Your work, Holy Spirit. You do a wonderful job of waking me before the kids awake in the morning so that I can spend this time with the Lord, of unveiling truths in the Word, of pricking my conscience when I need discernment. So TV, huh? I don't know how to do that. I'm not sure how to stop, or how to convince my husband that we need to stop. Can You work on him for me? We are one flesh - is it even possible that You want one of us to stay away from something and not the other? I don't think You are talking about morning cartoons, but I do believe nighttime TV watching just to pass the time is somehow not Your will. I know that if we didn't do it, we'd spend more time talking together and maybe less time eating... I'm so sorry for ignoring You over and over, Holy Spirit. I'm sure I do it often. I've half-obeyed on the TV thing so many times. It's such a habit. I of course do not have the ability to break free of habit. But You do. I know it requires a purposeful decision and a turn away on my part. But I don't think I'm ready for that step yet. Help me get there. More importantly, help my hubby get there. I want to cross that line together.

Lord, I trust You for all the provisions of the bible study You want me to lead. I have no idea who will be part of it, but I know You want me to do it. I'm desperate for Your guidance here, Father! I will wait, but wait with action. I keep spreading the news of my calling and keep my ears open to hear what You tell me through others. I'm leaning toward the neighborhood, Lord, but I am so unprepared and apprehensive about inviting pre-Christians to come. What study would be good to do for them? What if one of them did want to sit down with me and walk through the Sinner's Prayer? What if one was hostile or disdainful during discussion time? I trust that You would of course empower me and give me the words, but it's so uncomfortable. Yes yes. I know. Stupid reason not to do something. Obviously, You've got things planned and provided for even now and You continue to set the stage. Ug. Such a huge undertaking to network the neighborhood in search of willing workers and participants... Ug. Ug again. Well, if it's big, it's gotta be ALL YOU, Lord! I'm believing You for this! BE BIG, FATHER!

Perhaps the biggest thing is motivating and encouraging me to take all the prep steps with You. I'm trusting You for the BIG, but the details? UG. This means not being lazy. This means having uncomfortable conversations with all sorts of new faces. This means being brave. I'm not brave. But if I can only be submissive and obedient, I think (no, scratch that) I KNOW that's enough. Can You hold my hand through this, Lord? I'm not able to go it alone. Enable me to do it however You will it to be done. So, to that end, and for a million other reasons, fill me today, Lord. Use me. Restrain me, and prod me to act. I love You!