"Then he opened their minds so they could understand the Scriptures." Luke 24:45

Jesus, open my mind so that I can understand and appreciate Your scriptures. I still don't feel the stirring of Your Spirit...

"The New Testament example of the Christian experience is that of a personal, passionate devotion to the Person of Jesus Christ. Every other kind of so-called Christian experience is detached from the Person of Jesus. There is no regeneration— no being born again into the kingdom in which Christ lives and reigns supreme. There is only the idea that He is our pattern. In the New Testament Jesus Christ is the Savior long before He is the pattern. Today He is being portrayed as the figurehead of a religion— a mere example. He is that, but He is infinitely more. He is salvation itself; He is the gospel of God!

Jesus said, ". . . when He, the Spirit of truth, has come, . . . He will glorify Me . . ." (John 16:13-14). When I commit myself to the revealed truth of the New Testament, I receive from God the gift of the Holy Spirit, who then begins interpreting to me what Jesus did. The Spirit of God does in me internally all that Jesus Christ did for me externally." My Utmost For His Highest

It doesn't seem that You are "doing for me internally" very much right now, Spirit of God. Perhaps I am blind to what it is that You are doing - and maybe doing with all Your might! Perhaps You are, at present, going about Your work quietly. Like a stay-at-home-mom who works all day to keep the house looking the same way it looked in the morning, doing the endless chores to maintain home life, minding the children. Maybe you are doing amazing acts to keep the status quo. I do appreciate You, Spirit! It's frightful to think of life without You constantly here, guiding, protecting, sustaining. I've felt pretty dry, though, lately. And I'm positive there's some element of sin involved, but I can't put my finger on it just now...

I do know that I've been thinking a lot lately how tiring it is to be guilty all the time. To always have a million things to repent of, to confess. To lay myself bare in humble submission. It's so vulnerable. And I feel so helpless and weak before You. So totally void of any usefulness in Your Kingdom. I know that isn't a true assessment - you forgive all sins, give dignity to the repentant, and exalt the humble. If I feel any constraint, I'm sure it's either the Enemy's lies and my acceptance of their bondage, or pride in the form of false humility.

I need to put my eyes on You and Your majesty and stop worrying about my own petty trials.

If I feel dry, You are living water. If I feel weak, You are my strength. If I feel insignificant, You are The One and Only God of the Universe. If I feel lost, You will find me. If I feel dark, You are my Light. If I feel helpless, You are my Helper. If I feel lonely, You are my Friend. If I'm confused, You are the Truth and the Way. If I feel empty, You fill me up completely. You are the solution to every problem.

I have a list a mile long that needs Your touch, Your power, Your guiding hand. I don't think I can do it. I know I can't without a heavy dose of You. I'm so sorry, Lord, for being so self-focused. I want my eyes to stay on You.