I still haven't settled on a devotional to use. I've done all of Beth Moore's at least twice I think, and while they are SO good, I think the Lord is telling me there are other fish in the sea :). I agree with my mother-in-law that we can get stuck on one teacher and that can be dangerous... Not to mention one-dimensional. So I found a site that has several free ones, and today I decided to go with "submissive faith" because I am continually defeated lately in my battle with gluttony.

Yesterday I took snack to ABF and had a whole extra pan of cinnamon rolls left. I ate 2 in class and 3 when I got home. Then convinced myself that I could have 1 more for an evening snack if I ate an apple with it. Which actually wasn't a bad idea, but you get the point. It was REALLY hard not to go ahead and put a second one on my plate. It's not that I'm excessively overweight, but I have GAINED since having a baby and I recognize signs of sin attached to my eating habits, so that needs dealt with. Some other incentives to lose? My class reunion in July and my sister's wedding in September. Plus, it's not like all the romance has gone from my marriage, so I'd like to flaunt a slim body for hubby. Being a good role model for my son and daughter is a good reason as well - besides needing the energy to keep up with them and haul them around! And I'm sure we'll have a 3rd at some point and I'd like to begin the next pregnancy at a better starting point. Ideally 10-20 lbs loss would be about right.

HOW DO I DO IT?!?! I know I need to deal with the sin and monitor portion control, but I hate exercise. I do love to walk and hike, but with it being frigidly cold outside it can't be around the neighborhood and with my other currently inflamed sin of covetousness it can't be in a mall (do they make horse blinders for humans? lol). The only other activity I really like to do is horseback riding and I don't have access (or money) to do that. I don't like sports of any kind, dance is stressful, I don't have floorspace for exercise videos, stationary machines are expensive and boring, we don't have funds to get a health club membership (not that I'd use it anyway)... I think I'd do MUCH better if I had an accountability partner that was able to motivate, encourage, and push me. Or a personal trainer!!! But I don't have any friendships like that right now that I can think of... Well, my friend Dawn probably could... Maybe I'll ask her.

Anybody have any other ideas? I've only got a few months! :)

Father God, I repent of my gluttonous thoughts and actions. I hate them, but I'm bound by them. Please give me the courage and strength to break the chains because I know it is for freedom that Christ set me free! What's the point of being free if I let myself be mastered again by Satan? Uncover the lies in the shadows behind this sin and allow them to be bathed in Light. Then when You answer my prayer, fill my mouth with praises to glorify Your Name! I know that You are faithful and You will do it.