I just had to talk to You, Lord.

I'm getting excited about the upcoming move - everything is going to seem like a whirlwind now! I can't believe we have a month before Michael reports for work at his new company! He is super enthusiastic and looking forward to a job that will be fulfilling in so many ways. Just the change of lifestyle from traveling to being home more will be a big burden lifted and that will hopefully translate to better quality time with him while he's home. Friday nights when he comes home, it takes him awhile to relax from a stressful week, and Sunday evenings before he leaves inevitably makes him stressed again. Many weekends we're just too busy trying to be a family that we don't have time, energy, or motivation to be with other couples... But we're both hopeful that will change! He exclaimed the other night - "Wow! I could have a regular guy's night!" lol We are looking for a house that is big enough to entertain in comfortably - with a big kitchen, dining room, 2 living spaces (1 for adults and 1 for kids), at least 3 bedrooms (4 would be nice), and a fenced yard. We want newer because we realized after moving into a fixer upper built in 1910 that we actually don't like fixing up at all! Not even a little bit! I mean, painting and landscaping is one thing, but anything more involved than that - no way.

Anyway, I have no idea why I said all that because it's beside the point. The POINT is - well, the point is, Lord, that I am getting worried/stressed/anxious/whatever about all this. It's details out the wazoo and I'm a little scared. I know that there isn't reason to be. Well, I take that back. There are plenty of legitimate REASONS to be, but none that hold any water with You. If I even tried to justify my fears to You, that would be totally dumb. You have not given me the spirit of fear. Besides, You already have all this planned out exactly how You want it to go and all we have to do is follow You. So what's the big deal? I don't know, but I have a trust issue, Father. And I need Your Spirit to fill me up so much that there isn't room for any fear to dwell. I need to be reminded a million times until it becomes HABIT to trust You. Tomorrow, help me locate verses to memorize (and maybe carry with me) so that I can replace any lies Satan throws at me with Your Truth. Help me love You through this plan. Help me be molded to Your will and Your character so that people who watch me through this move see a reflection of You and wonder how I could be so positive and strong. May it be for Your glory and not mine. May Your will be done and may I rejoice in the sufferings of this trial so that I can come out of it having accomplished the purposes You ordained for this time. I am so grateful for this adventure! Thank You Jesus!