I'm mad that I have to do this. Why do I have to do this, Lord? I told You that I was at least obeying more than I have been, but You told me that half-obedience is still rebellion. So even though this is the 3rd day I've renewed my discipline to get up early to read Your Word and pray, and I keep telling You that I prefer to pray in my head for now, You are MAKING me write my prayer. Rrrrggg. Not nice, God!

Because I'm mad, I'm going to make this short! I have a list of wants, but I don't want to be rude and ask You about them while I'm also frustrated with You. Instead, I'll ask that You give me more of Your Spirit so that You can change my heart to want what You want. And I'll ask You to work within and around people like my dad, the widowed missionary wife Beth, Terry, Becky, my mom, my sister, my husband, my children, and my pastors. Bless them heartily, give them peace and rest, hope and joy. Change their hearts to more closely mirror Yours as well.

OK, so even though I'm mad at You, I still love You, Lord. I'm just throwing a tantrum. Have mercy on me and help me have mercy on my children who do the same thing :).